My heart hurts so bad.
12 hours of travel, very little food, almost missing a plane, for this? This unbearable pain on my chest that pushes tears out of my eyes?
I have waited all year to only want a hug just when I can't have one? To sit in my messy dorm room that might as well be a prison cell it is so blank and lifeless? To feel hopeless and weak and so terribly alone?
I know it is only the first day, but god this hurts. I don't know if I can do this. Have I made the right choice?
All I know is that I am so so sad.